Dates

I've got the dates for the children who are going to CO. I'm glad to actually have dates but in a way it's kind of sad. :( I am really going to miss them. But now, next week I've gotta start packing their stuff and getting them ready for a trip to their father. *sigh* I'm going to miss them SOOO much. They will leave for Colorado on the 20th. They will probably leave our house on the 19th and spend the night with their grandparents (on the ex's side). Then they will come home again on the 18th of July. Now, I just have to see what all they need NEW before they go to their father's. I know they need shoes but we'll see about everything else as I get them packed up.

A Little of This... and That...

Little Piglet's appointment was a very quick, in and out, appointment. They checked his lymph node... I got to ask a few questions. I wasn't as organized as I would have liked to have been going in. I wasn't sure what I should save for the next appointment with the specialist person and which ones would be okay through the general family doctor. I asked one question he couldn't really answer, which is fine because I'll get that answer at the specialist appointment. He took some time to explain the hand x-ray to me. Because they had given me a copy of the paper which I have enough knowledge to be able to understand. So, he went over it and explained again how whoever who interpreted it saw it. He said that it would probably be a good idea to get a copy of the actual x-ray to take with us. Then he said that they would probably get another x-ray when we got there... but they could use the original as a "base line". He couldn't (or didn't want to) tell me what this deviation away from normal meant as far as cause or what to expect when I go to this other doctor. But I also can understand that... that's why I'm going to this other person. So, for now that is all that I am able to tell ya about the appointment itself. I didn't ask about labs (like I said... a lot going on recently I didn't go in as organized as I would have liked). I might call them tomorrow and see if they will tell me if everything was normal.

Speaking of Little Piglet... today was his last day of Pre-K! He won't be going back there again. Next year (and technically speaking.. is now) a Kindergartener! He's so grown up. I am so very proud of him for all the accomplishments that he's made this year! There have been so MANY of them... even if gaining weight isn't one of them! :)

The Princess and The Dare Devil both have school tomorrow... then they are out for the summer. The Princess has an award ceremony at her school that I want to go to. I have a lot of running to do... in between some really tight schedules. The kids get out early tomorrow. *sigh* I will be glad to be able to STAY asleep when I don't have to be at work at 8 AM!

I suppose that's all for tonight... I have a couple topics I want to cover over the next couple days! But I will save them for their own posts!! Night!

Another Appointment & Help From You..

I take Little Piglet back to the doctor today. This is a family doctor appointment. I'm not 100% sure what to expect because I'm not 100% sure why they even want him to come back today. He already pretty much blew off his lymph node (which I'm hoping to get answers to when we see the diagnostic guy). My only guess is to check ears and tonsils. I don't know about the ears but the tonsils haven't changed (nor has that lymph node). But I'll update about the appointment when it's over... the appointment is at 1:30.

Today is Little Piglet's last day of school. After today, he's technically a KINDERGARTENER! WTH? Already! My baby has grown up. Dare Devil and The Princess have their last day tomorrow at 2:30. Then I have a 4th grader and a 1st grader too! WOW! How quickly they are growing and changing.

So, now I want some help from you guys... while my children are gone to their father's I'm not going to have much to post about... my own life isn't that interesting. So, is there ANYTHING you guys would like to hear more about to pass time. I've got to keep myself busy or I get miserable while they are gone. So, if you have a topic... please come on and leave a comment.

Seperation Anxiety

When I got home tonight my Little Piglet was asleep on the couch. The other kids were awake to give me goodnight kisses. But since he wouldn't wake up to give me kisses I held him for a few minutes... and I started to get all sad and teary eyed. I have less than 30 days before I have all these moments taken away from me for 30 days. It tears me apart EVERY year... EVERY year I get sad... I get moody. A part of me gets torn away. I would love for that part of my world to never get torn away like it does in this case. So, as I held him... I grabbed the camera and snapped this shot before asking Dear Husband to snap a few more shots. I hate feeling so sad... I hate crying. It should be a happy time for them. It should be a break for me... but I don't want the break! I wouldn't mind once a month for a weekend... or even every other weekend. But a MONTH at a time, tears me apart. Hurts my heart. I know they need time with their "father" but still. One of these days they will see that their father views them as an inconvenience and not the joy that they are. Their father always has been this way, but I had blinders on. They have blinders on right now... but they won't forever. As my youngest son laid in my arms sleeping peacefully I can feel it... I can feel my heart tear apart. I can feel the pull to just keep them. For the guy who thinks his child support goes so far... and complains when he has to spend money on them (he won't get pictures done, he won't buy clothes without threatening to take it from my child support, he won't get them anything they want/need without complaining) while they are with him... when most father's would be greatful and spoiling their children it makes me want to just hug them and hold them and shelter them from the world. Can't I shelter them from all this? So, tonight as I look down and see his sweet innocent face and I snuggle with this little boy... as I tuck in the older children and say good night and get kisses from them I find myself SOOO very sad... so sad that last night I even crawled into bed and cried on my husband. It's all I know how to do... is cry because I can't just KEEP them.


If only you knew half the story, you would know why I worry so much... you would know why this breaks my heart beyond just mommy separation. But I'd cry either way... because they are my life 11 months out of the year!!

Bedroom Remodel

Welcome to my first attempt at being secretive over the internet! I refuse to give many details because I am also not going to be giving my children a lot of details until they are done and they see it finished. I'll get into how that will work in another post (although, you might have to remind me). Anyways, here are a few details into what is going on.

I've begun my bedroom makeovers. They will be pretty much the first rooms completed. I have discussed my plans with each of the children over what will happen to their rooms. I wanted ideas because I don't just want to go DO it and then find out they hate it! Ya know? But they have no ideas which ones I'm going to use and which I am not. However, neither will you internet. I might give colors when they are done and over with but the real DETAILS will not be released until photos have been taken and all that.

I've began on the hardest room first. The one that will end up taking the longest. Because this will ensure that my time is spent most wisely while retaining the surprise behind it all. This will allow my colors/themes and other selections to be secret. They know we are painting, they just don't know what colors and themes. So I began with the room that needs two coats of WHITE paint to begin with.

I began with Little Piglet and Rough N' Rowdy's room. Their rooms were done in paneling of light tans, browns, and off whites. Very ugly colored. So, because of the colors I knew it would need more than one coat and so we took white paint and went over it. It is cheaper to just use the white paint than to have to use the colored more. But it's a blank slate pretty much. I got one coat of white put on today... BUT I will try to get another one on tomorrow.

Then Thursday I'll go buy some paint (colored) and put it away until I can get it done secretively. :) I love it! I can't wait. I can't wait for it to be done either!!!

Rescheduling...

Little Piglet's father e-mailed me back about the appointment time. It is currently set at the end of June. However, because the kids are with him for 1 month during the month of mid June through mid July I have to reschedule it. So, it won't be until the end of July. So, there we have it. I'll have to call tomorrow and reschedule it. Then I'll pop on here to let you know when it is!

Little Piglet Antibiotic

The other day, when Little Piglet was at the doctor, they put him on an antibiotic (in hopes of clearing up his ears, tonsils, and lymph node). Well, when I got home I realized that they put him on amoxicillin. I began to panic a bit... because Little Piglet is allergic to amoxicillin.

I guess now is when I need to back track a bit... to a trip to the ER for a feverish and screaming baby. When they diagnosed him with an ear infection and put him on an antibiotic to clear it up. Well, within a dose of the antibiotic he was happier and the pain meds had kicked in. However, after his next dose he began a blood curdling SCREAM... and when you picked him up he tried to get away and was in PAIN when you touched him. Then the rash started. So, we went back to the ER where they checked his ears and said that his ears were fine... let's try an antihistamine and also another antibiotic. He had an allergic reaction to the medicine that time.

When we returned home (we were on vacation then) and discussed this with his family doctor they said that it was concidered "mild" even if it was horrible for him. We could feel free to TRY the amoxicillin again and see what happens. The rash/pain could have been caused from an illness or it could have been piggybacked to close to an antibiotic that it reacted with because it was still in his body. I ruled out doing that test at that point. He wasn't able to talk to us to tell us what was wrong... I didn't feel up to what if he has a severe reaction (another risk with a mild reaction).

Well, Little Piglet is now old enough to talk and tell us specifics... so I went ahead and bit the bullet. He's not ILL now where he's cranky or screaming or anything. So, I figured we might as well do the test now. Get it over with.

Well, we are on day 2 of antibiotics... we've had 7 doses and he's doing fine. I had a worry moment there for a minute.... when he started saying everything was hurting. But it was the allergy medicine making him tired. No pain and no rash! So, it's either a reaction to an antibiotic from another antibiotic or it was from the illness he first had. So, maybe I can take it off his list... although I'll still always watch him VERY carefully when he is on that medicine.